Not sure if its my daughter I'm emailing with

So the past couple of weeks my daughter has sent me 1-word emails or forwarding college tuition stuff which my work is paying for. She was worried because on her account it said monies were due on 8/1 and she could be dropped if not paid. However, there will be 3rd party billing because like I wrote earlier my work has a Tuition grant program for dependents of employees. Anyway, I am still sending her emails and pictures and requests to reconnect. I hope it happens, if not I'm still going to try and not give up because she is my daughter and while she might think I'm evil and abandoned the family as has been the story told to her by the ex, i still wont talk negative about the ex even though she bashed me in an attempt to punish me for leaving. People have a right to be happy and that's what I wasn't with the ex. I got married very young. 20 and raised my son (even though not biologically). I've gone through years of therapy in an attempt to re-train my brain from the AT (automatic thoughts) that bring me down and are a result of my abusive mother. Well, that's it for now. My daughter doesn't know about this blog, so it's my open diary to her about my feelings and struggle still 5 years after the divorce. I know everything is for a reason and even though it sucks right now that I don't have a relationship with my daughter I believe its for a reason, either to give me time to be the best man and dad I could be and use the tools learned to show my daughter that I did not abandon her but have always been just a phone call away.... Ok back to work.